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Bhubaneswar, Orissa, India
My life as I lived it had often seemed to me like a story that has no beginning and no end. I had the feeling that I was a historical fragment,an excerpt for which the preceding and the succeeding text was missing. I could well imagine that I might have lived in former centuries and therefore encountered questions I was not able to answer; that I had to be born again because I had not fulfilled the task that was given to me. Finding myself to exist in this world, I believe I shall in some shape or other always exist; and with all inconveniences human life is liable to, I shall not object to a new edition of mine, hoping , however, that the "errata" of the last may be corrected. I am certain that I have been here as I am now, a thousand times before, and I hope to return a thousand times.

Friday, October 1, 2010

AN ANGEL CARED


Maddening, swirling, tumultuous thoughts give my heart no peace

Muscles tensing, heart's wrenching, longing for release

Walled off from emotions, numbed to dreams of bliss

Frantically grasping for a hold, sliding further into the abyss

All color drains from my world, subtle shades of gray permeate

Broken shards cast illusions, hope falsely propagates

A former warrior, battle tested, I frantically disguise my fears

Resolve dissolves, nervousness abounds as my refuge disappears

As rain cycle nears an end, the winter begins to advance

Stealthily attacking, patiently awaiting for a perfect chance

A frozen heart, desolate and bare, obscures all that would try to see

The warmth reflected, gives off no heat, illusions mask reality

On hands and knees, mumbling pleas, I search for sanctuary

To glimpse beyond this desolation, to a world of possibility

Eyes closed, perceptions peeked, it hovers beyond my reach

A whispered supplication, alone, these barriers I cannot breach

A gentle touch, delicate and warm, I feel her reach for me

Chasing back the shadows, an angel, cradles my sanity

Relaxing, drifting, smiling, I find comfort in her embrace

My savior and redeemer, a sassy smile upon her face

I close my eyes and search within, I'll trust my instincts this time

I feel a heart of gold as her passion's unfold, a beauty so sublime

Peace radiates from her body, a warmth soaks into my soul

A smile reflects a love so deep, my heart I cannot control

Illusions shimmer and are gone, my world is bright and true

Spring marches forth with determination as my life begins anew

To pass beyond is what I sought, but dreams do not compare

To the reality of this wonderland graced by an angel so fair

Dreams shared, rendezvous dared, we joined together as one

The bonds of my enslavement have been lifted, my battle finally won

No regrets can be found, my reflections bring no remorse

Love that binds, as the tendrils climbed lead me down this course

Peace and comfort fill my soul where once only chaos dared

Now love emanates, peace radiates, because an angel cared